I can't figure out how I'm going to babyproof this apartment adequately. The office told me to not use anything that puts holes in the cabinets. Unfortunately, I can only find one adhesive-mount lock thing online, and it's $8 per lock and they have poor reviews anyway! So today I have been moving all the chemicals into higher places, which just leaves all of the pots, pans, glass dishes, etc. We don't have a large enough kitchen that I can put everything breakable in higher cabinets. Another solution is to buy baby gates for both doors. But I've been looking around online and a lot of good, easy-to-use gates are $40-$50. Craigslist usually has some, but it's pretty empty right now. This all makes me so irked, because I could just pay $10 and outfit every drawer and cabinet in the apartment, but instead we have to pay tons more money for gates or for special adhesive locks.
Anyway, I'm probably going to just keep the bathroom doors closed anyway, so that takes care of those rooms. Every time she's followed me in there, she ends up playing with the toilet and pulling on the toilet paper. Oh, and today I was in the middle of moving chemicals into the hallway cabinet and she managed to pull the shower curtain rod down on top of herself. We have pretty much decided to remove it permanently, since this is the second time it has fallen on her/us (last time was bathtime, so it hit everyone). I love our apartment, but I get so fed up with it sometimes.
Speaking of frustrations, I get so anxious for Katrina to actually walk! How long has it been since she took her first steps? One month? Two? And yet she is too much of a scaredy-cat to walk on her own except from the furniture to mom or dad. And only then if she's in the right mood. If not, she will crawl the three steps instead. I know she'll figure it out eventually, but I'm ready. And everyone keeps telling me I'll be sad I wished for her to be walking once she is running around getting into things, but no, I'm pretty sure I'm ready. She already is going everywhere and getting into everything, and walking would sure make things less frustrating.
Sorry for the negative post. I just get really annoyed sometimes at this whole parenting thing. I definitely have worries, some which I know are stupid, but some which I feel are very legitimate. But anytime I voice those concerns, people tell me not to worry, usually in a well-meaning but rather condescending fashion. I would just like for someone to take my concerns seriously sometimes. Occasionally I'll express something and someone will say "I know what you mean! I also worry about my kid doing this or that..." and it is such a breath of fresh air. Thankfully, Adam is good at listening to my concerns without discounting them immediately. Some things he's worried about too, some he's not. But it's really nice to have him around when I'm feeling especially concerned.
I'm off to do...something. I don't know what. I read all my books. I'm actually saving some of the chores for when Katrina's awake because I want her to see me doing them and eventually get to the point where she can help me. So folding laundry will wait until after the nap.